I was keeping hope that it would be good news; our family didn’t need another medical crisis. But when the doctor called that day, my heart sank. It isn’t a good sign to get results from a brain MRI almost immediately.
People told me to “stay positive” and “be thankful.” But you know what? “Staying positive” didn’t seem possible for me. We had just gotten devastating news and I was afraid. I wanted to scream “how in the world can I be thankful for a brain tumor!?”
Jaxson, my sweet and hilarious little spit-fire, had gone through so much already in his short life. He was born 4 months early at 23 weeks gestation and spent 93 days in the NICU. He suffers from Chronic Lung Disease, has had six surgeries, and is enrolled in physical, occupational, and speech therapies.
And now he was facing possible brain surgery and chemotherapy.
I was defeated and I had a difficult time keeping hope.