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Anita’s Story

This story was submitted by Anita, one of our readers.

A step back, one of the reason I wanted to have a child was because of my struggle with endometriosis.  Having endo can lessen your chances to have a child.   I really thought a child was never to be in my life.

My pregnancy was something planned but unexpected things began happening. At 20 Weeks, I was diagnosed with Placenta Previa.   My doc told me that it would usually go away by the 28 week.

At 27 Weeks, I was taking a shower and began bleeding.  I have never seen so much blood in my life.   I really thought my pregnancy ended.

I went to the hospital with Diana and Pablo.   The baby was doing well with a strong heartbeat and kicking.   I could not believe it at all.    I was grateful.

At 29 weeks, I  had another bleed but it was small.

At 30 Weeks and 3 Days, on September 24th, the day I was supposed to be married to Pablo.   I began bleeding at 2am.  Pablo and I went to the hospital.   The bleeding stopped for hours and asked the doctors to release me so I can get married.  After getting contractions, I was told I could not.  Little did I know. At 1:00pm on September 24th, I told the nurse I felt that I was bleeding.  She checked and I was, only a little.  Then I felt another gush of blood coming I called the nurse again.   My doctor was in and she checked me.  The words that I did not want to hear came out.   You are delivering the baby now.   I called my brother and told him I was delivering, I only got one phone call.    Then I had so many doctors and papers in my face to sign consent.  I could not believe it.  As I got in the OR, Pablo was with me, talking and I cannot remember the words that were said.   At 1:43pm my daughter was born, 2 lbs 15 oz.  I heard her cry.  They cleaned her up and showed me for one second before she was whisked away.   I was still in shock giving birth to my baby girl at 30 weeks and 3 days.

My first visitors were my mom and brother.  The ones that did not agree with my decision to have a baby became Gabi biggest supporters next to Diana.

I did not see Gabi fully in the incubator later that night.   At 2am on September 25th, 2010.   I had to see her.   I sat there staring for 2 hours.   As determine as I was I began walking around and did not feel any pain from c-section or maybe just ignored it.

Days and Nights at NICU were difficult days, it is definitely not the days you expect to have with your child.   Through the ups and downs and talking with other parents. The experience became a little pleasant.   There were days that I could not breathe, there were days that I thought why?, there were days that I wish I could take the pain away from Gabi.  There were days I just stood in front of Gabi staring at her for hours. The doctors and nurses were there to help, they kept me informed and they were there to comfort in some ways.

Today Gabi is 9 lbs 6 oz, my life.   However hard she had in beginning, I can only hope that the future is easy for her to endure.   She is a fighter from the beginning and her will to live is stronger than most.    The preemie babies of NICU have shown me that there is nothing in life that can be harder to pull through from, they are the greatest survivor stories in life.   I cannot express the gratitude of the doctors and nurses that have taken care of Gabi.

I am forever grateful however the experience can be, the survival story of a preemie baby has touched my life and made me appreciate life itself.  However long we are here, we need to appreciate that life itself is a blessing.

Afton Mower About Afton Mower

After Mower (UT) lost her firstborn son at 21 weeks.  Her daughter was born a year and a half later at 27 weeks.  The NICU was overwhelming and isolating and it was through those two experiences she was led to found this social hub for parents to find the support they needed. Afton also gave birth to another daughter, born two days overdue after four months of strict bedrest. She believes it is a tender experience to hold a special baby in your arms when his spirit returns to his heavenly home, a miracle to watch tiny babies survive the risks of prematurity and a blessing to hold a healthy full-term baby after months of difficulty and sacrifices.


  1. Congrats on your little miracle!! I had my daughter at 24 weeks. She was in the NICU for 3 months. It is the hardest thing ever. She is now 7 months old and I cant believe how fast time has went!! Im glad to hear she is doing so well from such a rough start!! Take care!!

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