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Brianna’s Story

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My name is Brianna. I was 24 years old when I got pregnant with my first baby. I had a normal healthy pregnancy and she was born July 12, 2004 and was 7lbs 4oz at 38 weeks. When she turned 3 we decided to start trying for a second baby. After about 6 months of trying with no luck I got concerned and wondered if something was wrong. The dr said it could take up to a year and if I wasn’t pregnant then she would look into it if there was a problem, so we kept trying.  After a year I still wasn’t pregnant.  I knew something wasn’t right.  I had been using ovulation tests and could never pinpoint an ovulation day. I went to my dr, the same dr that I had throughout my first pregnancy, and who had delivered my daughter.  I told her my concerns and she told me without running tests or anything that I couldn’t get pregnant because I was overweight. To lose weight and try again and if I wasn’t pregnant in another year she would look into running test to see if there was a problem.

I was furious.  I wasn’t obese.  I had gained about 50lbs with my first daughter and had never lost all of it.  I actually had lost about 15lbs since the last visit to the dr.  I was mad at the dr for nicely calling me fat, and I was mad at myself because what if it was my fault.  I still knew there was a bigger problem so I found a different dr.  Had a first visit with her and told her my concerns and what the other dr said.  She looked at me and said I am pretty sure I know why you can’t get pregnant. You have P.C.O.S and you’re not ovulating.  I had all the signs and tested positive for P.C.O.S.  She put me on metforman to help me start ovulating.

I found out I was pregnant on July 10, 2009 (2 months on meds) and at 7 weeks had an incomplete miscarriage and had to have a D&C.  Dr gave me the ok to start trying after 3 months and I started taking the medicine again to help me ovulate.  I found out I was pregnant on January 31, 2010. All my visits was good. Baby looked good and my due date was 10-10-10. I had an ultrasound a 14 weeks and the baby was beautiful – such a little wiggle worm and a stubborn little personality already. Everything was going good. I felt the baby move around 17 weeks and was getting pretty comfortable that everything was gonna be ok. I went in for a normal 20 week ultrasound and we was excited to find out the sex of the baby.  It was a normal day.  We dropped our daughter off at school and headed to the ultrasound appointment.  A joyous day turned to panic.  During the ultrasound the tech seen that I had an incompetent, weakened,  shortened, opened cervix and was 90% effaced. I was rushed to a high risk dr who gave us very little hope but said he would put a stitch in my cervix the next day and hope it held our little girl in. The stitch was put in as best as he could, he said it wasn’t like he wanted because it was so short and he didn’t wanna pop the bag of water that was right at cervix.  I was sent home next day on bedrest but then went back to the hospital where my ob gyn delivers at 2 days later cause I wasn’t feeling well.  The high risk dr there couldn’t believe the other dr let me go home.  She said if you wanna save your baby you need to stay here in the hospital on bedrest till she’s born.

I was on bedrest for 6 weeks tilted on my head to keep pressure off my cervix. I started having contractions on June 30, and was given shots to stop them – it worked. On July 9th my water bag started leaking. I had an ultrasound and an exam the next morning and the dr  said she had to be delivered right away. She was breech, the waterbag was leaking a lot by now and the stitch was pulling so much I was already 5 centimeters dilated.  Zowie Angel was born by emergency c-section on July 10, 2010 (2 days before her sisters 6th birthday) at 26 weeks and 6 days.  She was 1lb. 14oz and was 12 1/2 inches long. She was so tiny but did amazingly well. She had no major setbacks and  was in the NICU for 9 weeks. She is my little Miracle and is now 8 months old and doing great.  Took us 3 years to get her and it was worth every second.

Afton Mower About Afton Mower

After Mower (UT) lost her firstborn son at 21 weeks.  Her daughter was born a year and a half later at 27 weeks.  The NICU was overwhelming and isolating and it was through those two experiences she was led to found this social hub for parents to find the support they needed. Afton also gave birth to another daughter, born two days overdue after four months of strict bedrest. She believes it is a tender experience to hold a special baby in your arms when his spirit returns to his heavenly home, a miracle to watch tiny babies survive the risks of prematurity and a blessing to hold a healthy full-term baby after months of difficulty and sacrifices.


  1. Since sending in my story I have took Zowie to the neurologist for what I thought was just a weak left arm and hand and she has been diagnosed with Cerebral Palsy. He also is scheduling her for a MRI because he thinks she had a stroke in while in the NICU.


  2. Hi Brianna,
    i can relate to ur story. My first child was 7 weeks early.. and my second.. who is now almost 5 weeks old.. was born at 31 weeks. I too also had a cervix that was dilated and efaced early. it was too late to put a stitch in mine as my sons head was visable at 27 weeks and they didnt want to break my water by stitching it.. i lasted another 3.5 weeks on ‘bed rest’ ..at home.. chasing around my daughter who is 17 months old.. Having a premi is scary but there is a reason women like us have them… i was told by a very lovely person.. premie babies pick us to be their mums because we are the strongest of women 🙂 good luck with your little darling …

  3. I had a preemie also. She was born at 28 weeks and 3 days. She was 2lbs 6ozs. Preemies are the strongest people I know. In my case my water broke at 25 weeks and I stayed in hosp until one day I started having contractions and they put me on monitor and 3 days later they came into my room to take me off monitors and her heartrate was gone. Thank god they didnt come in any sooner or this story could have been bad. Chloe had jaundice so bad and her heart vavle(sp) wasnt shut. Now she is 7months old and 14lbs. Our sweet miracles were given to us because like the post above God gave us these special little people bcuz were strong mamas. To be honest she is our last little one and its been nice (after she got out of the woods) to have a baby stay little for a longer time than a normal baby. God bless your little one!

  4. I am sorry about the discovery of some issues recently. Your daughter is beautiful. I was due 10/14/10 and delivered and 27+3.. We are fortunate that Melany is doing well, behind, but healthy. I hope things progress well and your beautiful daughter thrives.

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