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Courtney’s Story

This story was thoughtfully submitted by Courtney, one of our readers.

Me and my husband got together when I was 15 years old and not to long after that I got pregnant with my first child she was born a little after 40 week. she is now a little over 2. I have had my period regularly the whole 2 years and then on Christmas eve 2010 we had a small get together. I cooked and the family came and we had a good time…well a few days before that I had felt a lot of watery discharge coming out I mean I would walk a little and it would feel like I was peeing on my self. Well I didn’t think anything about it because like I said I had no missed period.

Well then on Christmas day I woke up and my little girl opened her presents and then we went to a friends house. Well at our friends house I started getting really bad back pain. I thought maybe it was because it was really cold outside…well that night we got home and went to bed….I didn’t sleep at all….the pain in my back started going to the front like period cramps….I thought maybe I was going to get my period so around 4 o’clock in the morning  I got up and went to the bathroom to put a pad on well when I looked down there was blood and water every where….I said OK its my period ..and I went back to bed..that morning I got up and couldn’t even walk from the pain I was in . Finally my husband convinced me to go to the hospital but first I took a quick shower. After the shower the pain started even worse . But I thought it was maybe a bladder infection.

So finally we got to the hospital and the triage nurse ask the usual question was I pregnant and I said no not that I know of and then she took my vitals and sent me to the waiting room.. I remember a pregnant woman come in and I told my husband she just doesn’t know what she is getting into. and he laughed . Well then they did blood and urine tests and come to find out i was pregnant. Well I told the doctors that I couldn’t be more than a few weeks pregnant because  I had just had my period. They said well you maybe loosing your baby, but they wanted to do an ultrasound to see how far  along I was. The ultrasound tech was really nice she started the ultrasound and asked me how many week was I, I told her that I didn’t know but around 3 .

As she kept going with the ultrasound her eyes widened more and more….she said well I have a surprise for you. I said what…she said your at least 5 months pregnant, I sat straight up and said WHAT.  She said and your in labor so they sent me to the labor and delivery so that the doctor could check me. I was in total shock he checked and I was partly effaced and 3 centimeters dilated. They gave me 3 different medicines to stop the contractions but nothing was working. They came back in and told me that i was 25 weeks and that my baby most likely wasn’t going to make it. I felt like some one had pored a bucket of ice water over me. I didn’t know what to do much less think. They stopped the medicine and said for me just to hang in there. That he was going to be born that day. Then they came back in they told me that they were going to send me to a hospital about an hour away so that my baby would have better care when he was born, but when the ambulance got there they checked me again and I was at 5cm. and they decided not to send me because there was the risk of him being born in the ambulance and if that happened the baby would never make it. So I waited and waited and waited. We called a few friends and they came to meet us at the hospital ..we were really shooken up . But now all we could do was pray.

Well hours passed and still nothing I got 2 shots of steroids, but still I was only dilated 5 centimeters and I wasn’t progressing  at all ..so finally the baby decided to come out like that. and on the 27th of December at 7:41 in the morning Yahir Amador Hinojosa was born. He was 1 pound 8 ounces and 13 inches long.. I had him only dilated 5cm it was painful but when i heard his first cry it was the most beautiful thing in the world. Then they took him away to the NICU. I didn’t see him until later on that night and it broke my heart to see him like that. He was intubated for the first week and a half of his life. Then went to the CPAP. I felt so guilty but the doctors told me there was nothing I could have done and i knew that  the best thing for him right now was for me to be strong and help him move forward ,and I knew in my heart that everything was going to be ok.

Now he is 2 months old 34 weeks adjusted age. He has a small PDA but it is closing on its own. He is eating all of his feedings from a bottle and is about a week away from coming home. He is my little miracle and though things were hard in the beginning I wouldn’t change him for anything in this world. The NICU has been really hard but if the NICU team wouldn’t have helped then it would have been a lot harder… 🙂

Afton Mower About Afton Mower

After Mower (UT) lost her firstborn son at 21 weeks.  Her daughter was born a year and a half later at 27 weeks.  The NICU was overwhelming and isolating and it was through those two experiences she was led to found this social hub for parents to find the support they needed. Afton also gave birth to another daughter, born two days overdue after four months of strict bedrest. She believes it is a tender experience to hold a special baby in your arms when his spirit returns to his heavenly home, a miracle to watch tiny babies survive the risks of prematurity and a blessing to hold a healthy full-term baby after months of difficulty and sacrifices.


  1. Samantha says:

    Such an awesome miracle! That was one huge Christmas present you got this year!!

  2. Beautiful 🙂 My little man was a 25 weeker too, but very, very sick…. nice to see other babies doing so well!

  3. A Christmas miracle! I have a 25 weeker as well 🙂

  4. yeah he really was my little miracle…he just got out of the hospital a week ago and i cant be a prouder mom. he truly is a fighter.. and good luck to every one that has to go through the same thing because it is one of the hardest thing i had to deal with in my entire life

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