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Elizabeth’s Story: Part 3

Daddy & BabyThat night was unusually quiet. I find myself thinking of it as the “calm before the storm”. Thursday morning we woke up with a call from her nurse telling us that Callie was the same, and she wanted to know when we would be over to see her. We talked for about 10 minutes, then hung up. Not 5 minutes later, her doctor called us right back to tell us that she had taken a turn for the worse, and he wanted to see us right away. We rushed over there, to see little Callie so tired, and struggling to stay alive. I knew that she had had enough. I couldn’t bear to see her struggle anymore. I wanted her to be free from pain and suffering.

He told us that Callie had developed meningitis, pneumonia, and her brain bleed has gone to a 4. We knew that she would never recover. We told her doctor that we wanted to hold her and say goodbye.

They showed to a private room, we were there maybe 5 minutes when they brought her in the incubator. I asked her doctor how long she would have, he said maybe 30 minutes. When I held her my heart melted. I couldn’t believe that this was happening to me and my family. This was the type of thing that you hear about that happens to your friends, cousin’s mother, or something of that sort. It was reality hitting me all at once.

I held my little girl so tight. I wrapped her in a blanket that was her big sister’s when she was a baby. In hopes that her smell would transfer over so I could always remember her smell. I wiped her eyes, and she moved her head toward me when I did. I bonded with her so quickly, and in those few moments that I had with her she stole my heart all over again. Her daddy held her too. He was so proud of his little fighter.

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Afton Mower About Afton Mower

After Mower (UT) lost her firstborn son at 21 weeks.  Her daughter was born a year and a half later at 27 weeks.  The NICU was overwhelming and isolating and it was through those two experiences she was led to found this social hub for parents to find the support they needed. Afton also gave birth to another daughter, born two days overdue after four months of strict bedrest. She believes it is a tender experience to hold a special baby in your arms when his spirit returns to his heavenly home, a miracle to watch tiny babies survive the risks of prematurity and a blessing to hold a healthy full-term baby after months of difficulty and sacrifices.

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