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Elizabeth’s Story: Part 4

Baby AngelCallie’s heart beat so hard for us for 4 more hours. She slipped into heaven at 11:00 that morning. Her little faced glowed when she passed. She had a golden color about her.

I went into the NICU with the nurse, and I gave my baby her first bath. She was so tiny, and so precious. She didn’t look like the baby that I just had only 4 days ago. She wasn’t there anymore. She was in heaven now with Jesus. He was her comforter now. I could just see Him rocking her to sleep in her new life with no pain or suffering. I bathed her, and put a tiny little dress on her. It was white and it had a tiny hat with booties. I dressed her then wrapped her up in her blanket and went back to the room.

When our family started to arrive, they each held her and cried their tears of sorrow. We stayed in the room for about 2 more hours, I then decided that it was that time to leave our precious Callie. I took her back to the NICU, I watched as the nurse undressed her and gave me her clothes, and all her little trinkets that she has acquired over the past 4 days. The hard part was now. I held her for a moment, kissed her and put her back in the bed, and I left. I was so much in shock. I didn’t know what was happening. I sat in the lobby waiting for Matthew to come with the truck , and I couldn’t help but watch all the new mothers leaving with their babies, and all I had with me was a box with her clothes, and her blankets in it. This wasn’t happening to me.

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Afton Mower About Afton Mower

After Mower (UT) lost her firstborn son at 21 weeks.  Her daughter was born a year and a half later at 27 weeks.  The NICU was overwhelming and isolating and it was through those two experiences she was led to found this social hub for parents to find the support they needed. Afton also gave birth to another daughter, born two days overdue after four months of strict bedrest. She believes it is a tender experience to hold a special baby in your arms when his spirit returns to his heavenly home, a miracle to watch tiny babies survive the risks of prematurity and a blessing to hold a healthy full-term baby after months of difficulty and sacrifices.


  1. oh dear God! I cried so much reading this. I’m so sorry for your loss… may God heal your heart!


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