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Jessica’s Story

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My name is Jessica and I found out I was pregnant on my 21st birthday and I could not have been more excited.  My boyfriend and me were thrilled but two weeks later started the long road ahead of us.  About 2 weeks after I found out I was almost 3months pregnant I started to bleed a lot with clots and everything. I thought the worst, I was losing the baby, till I went to the ER.  They checked me, the baby and everything was fine, and they said go home you’re fine. But I wasn’t fine.  I continued to have bleeding up to 6 months, like stream of blood.  I’d go through maxipads like nothing & every time I got checked everything seemed find.

When I was 5 months they noticed I had partial placenta abruption & really low fluid so I was admitted in providence, RI, for steroid shot and to be monitored but left within a couple days. At 26 weeks my water broke at home – that’s when the fear kicked in.  I was admitted at Woman & Infants in Providence,RI, where they gave me medicine to stop contractions which I really didn’t have.  So the next morning on July 21st, 2010, they stopped it and I was fine.  The baby was kicking and squirming away. At around 4pm that day I started with sharp pains and they’d check me and have me on the monitor.  They said they weren’t labor pains. I was fine and they kept giving me pain meds; then it just got worse from 4-7.  I was crying, I even went to the bathroom cause I had to push and they pulled me back into the room and realized I was almost 7cm and she was breech, so I was brought down for emergency c-section. At 7:41 p.m. on July 21st, 2010, Aubree Elizabeth was born weighing only 2lbs and she was 13 1/2 inches long.  She stayed in the NICU for 5 months then was transfered over to a children’s hospital.  She is still in the hospital now.  At 6 mths her lungs were sick and still are very sick and she just had surgery for a trach that was put in and she couldn’t be happier.  As hard as it is to see and go through what my bf, me, and my family have been through the past 6 months, my daughter should hopefully be home by March and I wouldn’t have my life any other way.  We are chosen to be preemie moms for some reason ’cause god knows we are the strong ones when others may have given up too easily.

Afton Mower About Afton Mower

After Mower (UT) lost her firstborn son at 21 weeks.  Her daughter was born a year and a half later at 27 weeks.  The NICU was overwhelming and isolating and it was through those two experiences she was led to found this social hub for parents to find the support they needed. Afton also gave birth to another daughter, born two days overdue after four months of strict bedrest. She believes it is a tender experience to hold a special baby in your arms when his spirit returns to his heavenly home, a miracle to watch tiny babies survive the risks of prematurity and a blessing to hold a healthy full-term baby after months of difficulty and sacrifices.


  1. You are VERY strong!!! I had a 24 weeker in June weighing 1lbs 6 oz and we were in the NICU 3 months and I thought I was going crazy! I cant imagine 5 months! But I know I would go thru it all over again for my child! its amazing how strong you realize you are when god gives you a preemie!

    Keep up the faith!!!

    Love the name by the way!!

  2. Pamela Harper says:

    You are a very strong person! i really understand how you feel, my twins were born at 25 weeks four years ago, one came home at 4 1/2 months the other did not come home until she was 14 months old and is trached. she stayed in the NICU at Women and Infants for 8 months then transfered to Hasbro, just take it day by day and you will see her get stronger and stronger!!! good luck to you and your family!!!!!

    • JessBlevins says:

      @amber, thank you its been a long ride and still going but it shoudl be over in another month hopefully & daddy picked out the name Aubree(: it fits her perfeclty.

      @Pamela, wow really i cant even imagine 14months i pray that doesnt happen, she had a goo run for 3months then got a cold and it set her back and she had to be re intubated she has bad lungs, and stiff lungs. She got trached a montha go and its a whole new baby she loves the more freedom with no tube down her throat and we are hppier seeing her happier but just want her home and they think in a month or so once we learn all we have to leran. hope your little ones are doing good <3

  3. u an ur family are very strong keep it up she will be home soon then u will be even happier ,,,,,

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