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Melissa’s Story: Part 4

This is the fourth of five posts dedicated to sharing one young mother’s experience with severe preeclampsia and an ultimate delivery of a 27-weeker to save her own life.  This is Melissa’s story.

On the fourth day that I had been in the hospital, I began having the worst headaches I have ever had. When none of the hospital’s pain medication helped, they decided that they would need to perform an emergency c-section. As my baby was being delivered, I heard her tiny whimper, and then I don’t remember anything else after that. That was Thursday night, and I don’t remember anything until waking up Saturday morning. I don’t remember anything about Friday. I woke up Saturday with a oxygen mask on thinking how good it felt to finally be able to breath. There were pillows strapped to my bed all around me and somehow I knew I had had a seizure, though I don’t remember anything about it. Because of my condition I was not allowed to leave my bed yet to go see my baby. It was hard to wait, but after a few days, I was finally able to go up to the NICU to see her. It was a good thing I was in a wheel chair when I first saw her because I’m afraid I might have fallen down. It was such a shock to see how tiny she was. It scared me. It broke my heart to see all of the tubes and monitors hooked up to her tiny body.

Begin with Melissa’s Story:  Part 1

Have you had any experiences similar to Melissa’s?  Please share in the comments, for Melissa’s benefit and for all of ours.  Thank you!

Afton Mower About Afton Mower

After Mower (UT) lost her firstborn son at 21 weeks.  Her daughter was born a year and a half later at 27 weeks.  The NICU was overwhelming and isolating and it was through those two experiences she was led to found this social hub for parents to find the support they needed. Afton also gave birth to another daughter, born two days overdue after four months of strict bedrest. She believes it is a tender experience to hold a special baby in your arms when his spirit returns to his heavenly home, a miracle to watch tiny babies survive the risks of prematurity and a blessing to hold a healthy full-term baby after months of difficulty and sacrifices.


  1. Melissa,

    Thanks for sharing your story; it’s not easy to write about such personal experiences. It really is a shock to see such a tiny baby with medical tubes, and from others I’ve talked to it’s a also to not immediately hold your baby after birth. Once again, thanks for sharing.

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