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Reflections of a Preemie Mom

Since even before I became a mother to my preemies, I often used this time of the year for reflection. This poem came to me in one of these times. May you bring home your miracle babies soon!




T’was the morning after Christmas, and all through the house,
Not a creature was stirring, not even my spouse.

I’d gotten up early, and brewed some coffee…
In hopes the aroma would help waken me.

I pulled out my journal, uncapped my pen,
And began my ritual of reflections – quite zen.

Something special from this year, something I would hold dear.
Something hard to endure, that would cause me to fear?

I sat and I thought and I pondered some more…
There was only one thing – it had rocked me to the core.

It was special and scary and surreal, all in one…
It was the day you were born, a mere 2 lbs. My son.

How I cried and I begged and I prayed and I pleaded…
That God would grant me what we most needed.

With every medicine, every surgery, every set-back you see…
I remember thinking, I wish it were me.

As the hours passed, the days, the weeks – three or four…
I grew to feel hopeful I’d hold you once more.

I sang to you; sweetly and softly and sure…
Then paused as I needed to gain composure.

In came the doctors who showed you such care,
With test results and updates they wanted to share.

What was this? Some news about you coming home?
It was sudden; I’d gotten used to you inside that dome.

But we prepped and we readied and became filled with joy…
The moment we brought home our miracle boy.

My preemies' first Christmas home

My preemies’ first Christmas home

Angie Bickford About Angie Bickford

Angela “Angie” Bickford (TX) is the mother of triplets born just shy of 28 weeks and weighing only 2lbs. 5oz. each. Sadly, baby A only lived for 49 days, but she and her husband make it their mission to celebrate his short life by helping others who have lost children. She spent 111 days total in the NICU, and between her three children, has experienced NEC, brain bleeds and hydrocephalus, reflux/GERD, sensory issues, daily therapies, and several trips back to the hospital. She is a speaker, published author, and blogger. On her personal blog, she talks about loss, faith and her obsession with cupcakes. Connect with her on Twitter, Facebook, Google+, and Pinterest or via email.

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